What are you thinking? (Part 2)
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There is something wrong with me. you see i used to have this friend that i've talked a lot with and we became really good friends and we've been talking a lot and had a few sleepless nights chatting about our favorite artist Gackt trying to figure out the hidden stories in his songs and album covers also making plans of how to sneak into his house and get his autograph. I've known her since 2005. and the last time i talked with her was in 2013. she sent me a message and i tried to reply to her but couldn't think of anything to say and i decided to try later. and now we are in 2016 and guess what? i am not i haven't replied to her and i am not feeling bad or down about it. Its like i was able to let her go easily. on the other hand a few months ago i made two friends who i barely talked to. most of the time our conversations go like this
Me: Hi
How are you?
Them: Hi, i am alright thanks, How are you?
Me: Glad to hear that. I am good thanks.
Me *offers a cup of coffee*
Them *Accept and offers some tea and egg rolls or Salad*
Me *Accepts*
*Crickets starts crikiting and tumble weed starts tumbling*
That is how most of our conversations went.
and a little while ago one of them thought that i was in love and want to be in romantic relationship with. Which by the way was totally wrong. so our friendship ended and i thought that since i barely know them i won't be feeling bad about it. But i thought wrong. because ever since last Christmas i've been hearing this little voice inside me that keeps bugging me about that i should go and talk with them and clear things out. because it made me feel like i am riding a roller coaster that was built on a rowing boat in the middle of a perfect storm. i mean i've been happy, Angry, confused for why was i feeling happy, unsure why i was angry, happy sad and confused at the same time. had a whatever moment and angry. all because that little voice suddenly appeared for those two whom i barely talked to and didn't appear for my other friend whom i've known for 8 years. and a few hours ago i've sent a message to one of them and told her how i feel about them and get it over with. But now i am struggling because of it. that little voice tells me that i should go and read the message again and check what that person said about it. and the the other part is fighting that urge because i know if i did. things will go from worst to THE APOCALYPSE. because of what i said above.
This is exactly why i haven't been in the forum for the past couple of days.
Me: Hi
How are you?
Them: Hi, i am alright thanks, How are you?
Me: Glad to hear that. I am good thanks.
Me *offers a cup of coffee*
Them *Accept and offers some tea and egg rolls or Salad*
Me *Accepts*
*Crickets starts crikiting and tumble weed starts tumbling*
That is how most of our conversations went.
and a little while ago one of them thought that i was in love and want to be in romantic relationship with. Which by the way was totally wrong. so our friendship ended and i thought that since i barely know them i won't be feeling bad about it. But i thought wrong. because ever since last Christmas i've been hearing this little voice inside me that keeps bugging me about that i should go and talk with them and clear things out. because it made me feel like i am riding a roller coaster that was built on a rowing boat in the middle of a perfect storm. i mean i've been happy, Angry, confused for why was i feeling happy, unsure why i was angry, happy sad and confused at the same time. had a whatever moment and angry. all because that little voice suddenly appeared for those two whom i barely talked to and didn't appear for my other friend whom i've known for 8 years. and a few hours ago i've sent a message to one of them and told her how i feel about them and get it over with. But now i am struggling because of it. that little voice tells me that i should go and read the message again and check what that person said about it. and the the other part is fighting that urge because i know if i did. things will go from worst to THE APOCALYPSE. because of what i said above.
This is exactly why i haven't been in the forum for the past couple of days.
Holly shibables I'm almost at 5000 posts and 7 years.
I don't know why but every time i clean my room. i get this feeling that something is different. and at the same time i feel that it looks bigger.
CT: With the number of law firms I've visited in the past month, it's no surprise I have the flu... Plus a metric tonne of free pens that'll inevitably go missing (Wherefore art thou disappeared, Freshfields pen?) and a metric tonne of exhaustion to catch up on.
The more Caitlyn Jenner opens her mouth, the more I'd like for her to stuff it. I don't know what planet you live on lady that is fooling you to believe Ted Cruz, of all people, is better on women and trans issues than Hillary Clinton, but it certainly ain't planet Earth.
This pretty much confirms that Jenner cares far more about preserving tax loopholes than advancing trans issues in any way. But you do you - whatever makes you happy.
This pretty much confirms that Jenner cares far more about preserving tax loopholes than advancing trans issues in any way. But you do you - whatever makes you happy.
JaguarsSoul
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As should be expected by someone that's both white, upperclass and rich, but is Hillary Clinton any different? If memory serves right, wasn't she openly against same gender marriages back in 2013? It isn't hard to imagine how she's with trans issues... except, of course when you need the Votes.
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Yes, she was very late to support same-sex marriage. And don't get me wrong, I'm no HRC fan. That's who she is - she's not a leader, she follows polls and does things when they are popular and that's why Bernie Sanders is as popular as he is. But Jenner saying that Ted Cruz is better on women and trans issues is just absurd. Hillary Clinton is a lot different from Ted Cruz.
JaguarsSoul
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True. That aside, I'm no American, but boy does Bernie Sander's plans get very close to how things go here in the Netherlands (it's not really fun to live here but still a whole lot better than the US from what I've heard).
Either way! CT: That feel when you ordered something a month or two ago and it still hasn't arrived due to shipping address errors... (I'm dying my dude)
Either way! CT: That feel when you ordered something a month or two ago and it still hasn't arrived due to shipping address errors... (I'm dying my dude)
CT: Life sure isn't fair. A girl I made friends with in uni, who literally made no effort and got drunk all the time and subsequently failed and so is retaking the whole course, has had two pretty big jobs in the time since I left uni... All I need is literally one company to give me a chance.
Definitely start volunteering, Jen. I started volunteering at an MP's office last month, and I've been told they're going to be hiring sometime in April and I'll pretty much be a shoe-in. Check out the organizations you'd like to get some experience with and, if you can, volunteer a few days a week.
DAIRY QUEEN EMPLOYEES. SERIOUSLY. When I get a flamethrower wrap, you put a tiny bit of sauce in one corner of the wrap, so when I ask for a little more sauce, you put so much on that it's almost inedible. Do I have to make them for you? Grr.
Yeah, I'm gonna try that. I currently volunteer for a charity shop because here in England they say that companies love any kind of voluntary work, but that doesn't seem to be getting me anywhere right now, after being there eighteen months. Gotta try something new.
Trying to keep my chin up though, haha.
Well I'm open to most job roles if I can do them. I'm looking at administration mostly and some retail stuff, but I've seen jobs to do with animal charities that interest me with progression opportunities. I just want something to do (I hate sitting at home too much) and also I just want to earn money. My eventual dream is to become a writer, but I need an actual job while I do that. Something will turn up eventually, I'm sure. I'm not gonna be unemployed all my life. 