This is ridiculous.
I'm sorry, I probably should be more sympathetic but I'm unmoved as this is kind of silly. You were banned. It happens all.the.fricken.time. So pull yourself together boy and move on. If this is a serious thought you've had, they were right in that you do need to seek help and you need to seek psychological help immediately.
You have a chance to start new here, so take it. But - and I'm giving you a heads up - complaining about another forum in nearly every post you've made is beginning to annoy me. My advice to you is to stop it, now, and go talk about Resident Evil.