I'm not a jock dude anymore though.... I was fighting since 12, been shot at, and vise versa, but I have changed alot! And you guys help too, you are the greatest people I have ever meet, so caring you know, and I appreciate that, I really do, I'm slowly forgiving my self for being that way, and it's really hard, but after talking with Lord Golbez, he helped me learn to heal myself after being such a horrible person....