I was something of a lost cause for a while, very much into politics and all that comes with modern living.
But as i've grown i've felt that upon learning new things from the toughest period in my life, i feel myself spending more and more time in the roaming fields of heather and endless woodlands.
I came to realize there was nothing for me in the big cities but broken concrete and ****tered dream, so i opted for the horizon. I'd much rather listen to the sound of the wind lashing through the Scottish highlands, than listen to some tool on the tv.
To pass time and to keep myself happy,i have a deep interest psychology,art,history and tomorrow, i also have an interest in renassiance which explains my love of Rapier and Art...I like nothing better than to spend some time doing some archery, that is def my me time, it lets me focus my mind, which is forever fleeting!
Like Femme, i too read up on the death camps and what not, as i'm never easy with how man treats himself and others...such things are hard to take in, and understand let alone, accept. What truly messes with my mind, is not the treatment of human beings but how we can build a death camp one day, then a hospital the next....proclaim to love all and accept them in all their ways, yet sleep with a gun under your pillow. Stand over an insect and feel like a god, yet come to think how vast the universe is and the tables soon turn.
I'm a lover of mystery and adventure.....to think back to the time when i offered my now partner in crime a hand in friendship which then went onto an international adventure as we traveled the globe in search for fun, always makes me smile and reminds me of what it is, to be me and what i stand for.
My history teacher ( the one who installed my interest in the templars and secret societies ) simply described me as a '' drifter '' and he's not far wrong.
Not that it has to be said, but incase some haven't figured out by now, i'm a huge animal lover, i view humans as not the latest step in evolution, but the guardians of nature and all it's creatures....sure they lack intellect, but upon witnessing how we've used ours, i wonder who is better off...
every howling wolf, soaring eagle, rampant lion or wandering elephant all have eyes that tell a very very ancient story, just a pity we can't make heads or tails of it.
Me as a person....
dry,sarcastic,cynical,thoughtful, extreamly generous to a fault to those i love and would die for. For my friends and family are a big part of my life, i do not seek their approval, or praise, but i seek their love and wisdom...i've something of a dark past.....one in which i do not recognize myself...but these days and for quite some time... i've come to know what it is to be alive, and to live life. my heart bleeds for humanity.
Me as a lover....I'm very old fashioned... not in a man earns, woman raises kids, old fashioned... but stoic, and towering with strength....my partner ( not that i have one at the moment ) often finds themselves being the jewel in my crown....they are almost devine in my view.. treated with utter respect, looked after and looked out for, like she's the queen of queens..sensual is how i'am,very effectionate,not clingy, as that's , well....weird. Her needs are filled if possible and she must always feel nothing but alive when around me...i always stride to make sure the relationship is fresh.
I've no boundries on prefereince, although i've noticed Italian ladies seem to know the quickest way to my heart.
In this day and age, you could say i appear protective, but i simply see it as being the type of guy who declares i'd fight and die for my love, then see's it through... pillow talk, simply doesn't cut it, not in a world this dark. Some may see it as a display of macho bull****, and i can see their point, but i always try and keep the tiger in the long grass.
my taste in music goes from Blur to Guns n' Roses...Pink floyd to Iron Maiden...Amy MacDonald to Manson.
These days ?
i continue to walk through life with a rapier in one hand and a glass of wine in the other...i'm enjoying being single, young, free and full of health...as ever, i keep about the same level of public exposure as a Scottish Wildcat, but it doesn't mean i don't like socializing... i'm just a good and quick reader of people...
Hope that clears the air a little.
. I want to get the new Immersion Edition of The Wall, but unless the scarf they offer in the package is made of Roger Waters' hair, I can't bring myself to pay $150 dollars that I don't have for it (just kidding, but not really lol)
