Do not worry, this is something i've spent my entire adult life living with.
Back in the day, i was the bubble gum kid at school ( Hence why i can relate to a certain mr Leon.S.Kennedy ) but once the shackles of youth were removed and i was thrown into the deep end that is life, i became a loner...
Simple minds believe loners to be weak, out casts, but i've come to learn that those who walk their own path, form their own opinions and live their own lives, no matter how '' boring '' are stronger than they realize.
people play the numbers game, ( loads of people on the Facebook friends list depsite not even knowing them ) because it gives them comfort.... but for me.... the words from the song Estranged '' gotta point this out, you came in this world alone '' have stuck with me for as long as i can remember.
I think loners have an acceptance of how things have been, are and will become....even in our darkest moments... we know there is more to it than what we currently are aware of... but we can't put our fingers on it.
In hollywood.... the loner, the one who needs nobody or fends for themselves, is always every ones fave...but they wouldnt walk that walk themselves... much too difficult. best just hide in the herd and hope the big bad wolf doesnt get you this time.
I don't believe its an anti social thing... i think its a point of view... its a way of looking at world, seeing past the glam and glitter... the fire works and gossip... and seeing things for what and how they are.
make no mistake about it.... you are a highly valued person to those ( even if its only a few ) people who know you.
Emptiness use to be my biggest problem.... but i came across an old native American saying, that empty land to some is bland, but to us it's uncluttered...... and i like that.... you live an uncluttered life.... you are who you are... its for others to take it or leave it... either way, it's their problem, not yours...
heres my fave lonely mood song, i always belt this out at the top of my lungs, even the howling parts towards the end lol
enjoy